Pop and Circumstance

I think I've figured out why this surprise pregnancy has sent me reeling so much more than the first surprise pregnancy had. Well, one large part of many reasons, any way.

See, when I was 19 and found myself with a baby on the way, I planned that by my ten year High School reunion I'd be in the same place as everyone else: completed college, married, homeowner, with a family. But I'd just done in in reverse of everyone else.

But with popping and adding Rei to our family, and current circumstances being what they are, I am not going to finish a Bachelor's before the tenner. I won't even have an Associates. Academically speaking, I'll have a whole lotta nothing to show off.

And maybe I just sound like a pretentious brat here, but really, when one looks though MySpace and Facebook and sees all the other kids that she was tracked with, academically, in school since day one having completed educations at the Ivies and other top Universities, really, it's hard not to feel the blow to the ego. And now, not only did I not get on track back in the day with getting into a proper college, but now I don't have ANY degree to show. And I won't, for a long while, if ever.

But this is all failing forward, right?